Sanoja: Adam And Andrew. Music Pimps. Emo Kid.

Dear Diary

Mood: Apathetic

My life is spiraling downward
I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert
It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like "Stab my heart because I love you" and "Rip apart my soul" and of course "Stabby rip stab stab" And It doesn?t help that I couldn?t get my hair to do that flippy thing either? like that guy from that band can do? some days...

I?m an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
You?d be non-conforming too if you look just like me
I have paint on my nails and makeup on my face
I?m almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a fag
'Cause our dudes look like chicks and chicks look like dykes
Cause emo is one step below transvestite

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo

I don?t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

I?m dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way I dress makes everyday feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister?s mascara now I?m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can?t get through a hawthorne heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it?s never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don?t need another one

Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo

I don?t jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo

Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo

I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo

my life is just a black abyss... ya know..it?s so dark. And it?s suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans...which look great on me by the way.

When I get depressed I cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped gives me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I tell my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I?m just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me ?Catcher in the Rye? and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said that I like girls I?d only be half right

I look like I?m dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo

Screw xbox I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo

I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo

Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo

My parents don?t get me ya know
They think I?m gay just because they saw me kiss a guy? well, a couple guys ?but still, I mean it?s the 2000?s, can?t two?or 4 dudes make out with each other without being gay
I mean, chicks dig that kinda thing anyways
I don?t know diary, sometimes I think you are the only one that gets me?you?re my best friend
I feel like tacos

(Thanks to Emily for these lyrics)