Sanoja: Ailanthus. Other. Nothing.

I've just begun to understand
the thing that I fear most
not in death, not in pain, never anything..
uncertainty has brought me here
it has left me standing for years paralyzed with warmth around me
camoflaging this nothing
so can I face it , my fear admitted and move on
Nothing, the fear of knowing it ,the empty of feeling it
the nothing that make me insane