Sanoja: Ani Difranco. Not A Pretty Girl. Light Of Some Kind.

Wish I didn't have this nervous laugh
Wish I didn't say half the stuff I say
Wish I could just learn to cover my tracks
Guess I'm not concerned enough about getting away with it

'Cos every time I try to hold my tongue
It slips like a fish from a line
They say if you want to play
You should learn how to play dumb
'Cos I guess I can't bring myself
To waste your time

We both know what I've been doing
I've been intentionally bad at lying
And you're the only boy I ever let see through me
And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
And I hope I never improve my game
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
'Cuz at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
There must be a light of some kind
There must be a light of some kind

Musta have blown a fuse or something
It was so dark in my mind
She came up to me with the sweetest face
And she was holding a light of some kind

And I still think of you as my boyfriend
I don't think this is the end of the world
And maybe you should follow my example
And go meet yourself, a really nice girl

'Cos we both know what I've been doing
I've been intentionally bad at lying
You're the only boy I ever let see through me
And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
I hope I never improve my game
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
'Cuz at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
There must be a light of some kind
There must be a light of some kind

In the end the world
Comes down to just a few people
For you it comes down to one
But nobody ever asked me
If I thought I could be
Everything to someone

There's a crowd of people
Harbored in every person
There are so many roles that we play
And you've decided to love me for eternity
I'm still deciding
Who I want to be today

We both know what I've been doing
'Cos I've been intentionally bad at lying
You're the only boy I ever let see through me
And I hope you believe me when I say I'm trying
I hope I never improve my game
I would rather have these things weigh on my mind
And at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
There must be a light of some kind
I want light of some kind
I want light of some kind
Give me light of some kind
Light of some kind