Sanoja: From Autumn To Ashes. Reflections.

I felt you slip away
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you
Anger wells inside me
I see me, frowning, in your eyes
(i see the fear in you where noone should ever be,
i find myself striving to catch you from..
this will hurt me less and less everytime until i feel nothing)
I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone
Anger wells inside of me
I see me, frowning in your eyes
Far away from me
Further from me
You seem to drift far away
I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you
(she said "its not that i dont love you anymore,
but it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place)
I put the fear in you where noone should ever be
Nothing to me
Everything to you
Nothing to me
Everything to you.

"I can't take it anymore. When I'm with you, I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I'm nothing. That's why I flinch when you come to touch me. It's why I never touch you. Why I never even think about it. Because when I start to, it just reminds me that I'm not good enough."
[Pacey, "Dawson's Creek" - Season 4 - "Promicide"]