Sanoja: Marillion. Going Under.

Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else?
I'm just checkin' out that I'm not gone under the water
Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter

Can't you understand that the way things were planned
It never worked out so I would just went crazy
I took to the drink, like something says it's maybe

I ain't got no excuse and that's really the news
Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it's always my way
I seem to be runnin' away so often

I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be
But it's always the same gettin' caught up again in a habit, a habit
But I just can't shake off the way it always turned out

Can you understand it's the way I choose to be?
Everything seems so easy this way but I'm goin' under fast
Slippin' away, am I so crazy?